I used to be a people pleaser. Someone who could never say no and would perpetually put everyone else before myself. It was draining me both physically and mentally, but I did not know how to break free.
At the beginning of September, I came across a series of stories on Instagram that caught my attention. They were posted by Marc and were based on his application-only programme called Hard To Kill. Each story was stimulating me on a neurological level, as he explained how he build, educate and resource his clients to become hybrid athletes that knows how to nourish, hydrate and recover methodologically and reliably, and how to question, plan and think like tacticians.
I wanted in.
I was intrigued and got in touch, and within a few days we had pencilled in a call in which I, without being aware, would be tested to see if I was a suitable candidate. He dug deep. He was genuinely curious and gave me insights I would have never come to on my own; why I act like I do based on my childhood, why I think the way I do, how I perceive things and that I was an overachiever.
Prior to speaking with Marc, I had no idea what I truly wanted, but the thing I wanted the most at that moment in time, was to be able to set boundaries. Both personally and professionally. I was very excited when I was told that I had passed the selection and was invited to join the programme.
Do not just exist in the space you occupy, live your life intentionally.
The Hard To Kill community has helped me further than I ever thought possible - and in such a short space of time that I almost feel like I have cheated. It has been an accelerated growth to say the least. In just nine weeks we have created a new & very powerful version of Maria. Imagine what we can do in 6 months!
I have become better at setting boundaries in both my personal and professional life. I have developed an even deeper self compassion. I have optimised and improved my sleep pattern and my stress levels are lower than ever before. I now react with a calm and composed attitude as opposed to feeling overwhelmed when faced with what can be perceived as stressful situations.
Having spent an extraordinary amount of time in solitude lately, I have been chasing a higher level of cerebral thought. I am rewiring my brain by seeking things in life that is stimulating me on a neurological level and purposely checking out of what is no longer serving me.
I am learning how to operate on uncertainty, because life is unpredictable. Most importantly, I have stopped asking people for directions to places they have never been.
I am very grateful for the insights I have had and my curiosity to keep on exploring. I have massively enjoyed the inward journey, letting go of habits that were not serving me any purpose and picking up habits that can help me become a better person and ultimately lead a better life.
It has been and still is a mind-blowing journey and I am beyond grateful for my courage to explore the vast depths of the impossible until I have found a possibility, and let the acceptance of normality be outweighed by my curiosity of what in fact is possible.
So here is to a future of extensive growth that will not only reshape my mind; but bend my reality and blast away any limitations I may previously have had. Now, I aspire to be resilient and powerful, irrespective of the theatre.
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